I called Dr. Maggie on Good Friday after our vet trip and procedure, not sure what the future would hold… hoping I might have weeks or even months left with my sweet little girl before we would need these services. Sadly, we needed her the next afternoon. I called that morning and made the appointment. She arrived as planned. She only knew us for less than an hour, but she spent those precious minutes being completely present, really getting a feel for who we were, and what our loving bond had been like for all these years. That meant so much to me, and helped provide comfort on the worst day of my life.
After she got to know us in our home, we were able to move to the patio in the back yard, where my darling little girl had lounged and watched me do yard work so many times before, in our beautiful little paradise that we had shared, just the 2 of us. I was unnerved and doubtful about my choice, but Dr. Maggie was comforting and calm, as my grief absolutely took over.
The aftercare services were not any easier, but having them there to handle everything… having it all arranged by Dr. Maggie, and included in her fees… it was the best decision I could have made. Austin Pet Memorial Center’s representative was respectful and calm. He was gentle with my baby as he moved her and covered her with a little blanket in her basket. He made sure to ask if I needed more time, being responsive to my overwhelming grief.
I do believe that some people might be better served in the sterile, clinical environment of a veterinary office, but not me. I didn’t want that stressful drive to the vet one day… I didn’t want to wait until she was miserable and uncomfortable. I wanted to take on the pain so she would have none. I believe our culture makes death a taboo subject, and inhibits our healthy grief. Dr. Maggie allowed me to be present in the moment, letting my little girl’s soul fly free in my beautiful backyard, where I will always remember her.
I hope that soon, the memories of that day might fade a little, as I am assured by everyone who has gone through this before. I hope that I will be left with beautiful memories of her spirit… lounging and watching as I water the flowers, cut the grass, pull the weeds… she will be there to keep me company in nature, and the memories will only feel like the precious and comfortable time we shared with each other.
